Long time no see!

Almost a year….my goodness how time has flown. Since I haven’t been dancing much in SL I haven’t kept this blog up to date, so lets catch up.

As I said I haven’t been dancing much, why?  I guess many reasons factor into it. Since Rya closed the school due to her illness and has been on less, I haven’t been much involved in the dance community. I haven’t felt like writing dances, perhaps my fire doesn’t burn as fiercely as it did. My health in RL has not been great either and am just finally getting to a better state. Maybe all the drama that crappy sub-humans threw my way that ruined my love of SL and role play.  Could be all those who felt they had the right to tell me what I should feel and how I should dance and to what music I HAD to dance to. Perhaps because my interests had changed moving away from the new, corrupted Gor to more of Game of Thrones RP.  What ever it is I won’t say I never will dance again, but for now…meh.  I just join in some things for the fun of it, like this tribute to Rya at this years Faction Wordless dance.  All Rry’s beauties joined to express our love as she said farewell to teaching in SL.

to rya

One great thing happened in 2014, October the 26th as a matter of fact, this happened:

wedding

First he was a friend, then my Master, he became my love and finally my husband.  Joined by a few close friends we promised to be there for each other for the long road. I am a truely lucky woman to have this man in my life.  The beauty behind me, my friend Maddy, like Rya a SL introduction, but someone who crossed over to RL and there for years now.

I won’t say I never dance…once a month V takes me dancing on our anniversary of our meeting, he is a romantic that way. Most often a ballroom setting. 

8th anniv 7  

Sometimes he takes me to a casual place.

Im15th dancing at Whimsey

It doesn’t matter as long as we are in each others arms! 

Will it be another year till I post again?  Who knows?

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Congratz to the Soaring Herlit

Celebrating their 6th year anniversary and combining with a fund raiser for the RFL proved to be tempting to me, as well as the theme “Why Do Slaves Dance?”  I had plenty that I WANTED to say on the subject but I had to do some searching in my heart to find what I NEEDED to say.  I got off to a rocky start being 15 minutes late, lucky it was that…I thought it started a hour later than it did. My horrible week carried over and left me brain dead.  I was disappointed to see a couple of the girls didn’t follow the theme and almost seemed like last minute fill-ins.  I had hoped for a better turn out in both dancers and audience as I am fond of the Herlit, after my debacle there Lady Dem was supportive and I noticed they have gone to exhibition dance only, no contests anymore.  Here is some of my dance:

“Shadows of another reality gather around her, shadows that chain and deny a slave from the freedom of the dance in their world. Betrayed and chained there by a body that cannot express her heart and fire as this slave does in the sands of Gor. “

SH chain

I began in chains to symbolize how so many of we dancers in SL are unable to dance in RL for one reason or another. There is a joy and freedom found watching our little avatars whirl gracefully in the sands.

“Flame (scarletfleur) leaps in the air with the joy of a dancer untethered at last, skipping and twirling. Shadows burn away igniting a clear, hot fire of joy and freedom. The slave dances and her voice is heard, the freedom is felt and the shadows melt away she is transformed, like a new being from the ashes of the old she now soars over the sands like a fiery tarn on the breeze of submission, expression and joy. “

SH fans

The chains now off… the wings of freedom now send the dancer through the sands.

“Flame (scarletfleur) twirls around like a zephyr of scarlet fire, small feet leaving circles in the glimmering sands. The strong arms spread like the fiery tarn she is…reborn in these sands. Free in her collar, free in her submission, free in her dance!!! Dance Kajira….Dance Kajirae! DANCE!!

SH fan3

Master slipped in at the last minute and told me he was proud, even without knowing I belonged to him a couple of men he knew voiced their pleasure in my dance.  That was why I dance.  Because here I can, because it bring me pleasure, because it pleases him, it entertains and pleases the audience and brings him pride.

Friday Night Lights!

The burned brightly in Rorus on Friday!  I had a couple of friends entered so it was good to go watch.  The venue had some issues, I was told the person who normally handles the dance contests or exhibitions was not allowed to set this one up, as such it was thrown together the night before, a poor set, a missing judge, unnecessary lagging and a unprepared host for example.  I was told there was initially 12 dancers allowed to enter…about 4 too many…I groaned inwardly at the time that would be required to sit there, luckily it was reduced by drop outs to 9 and one of the 9 was a now show so we were presented with 8 dancers. Still a bit long for a 6pm on a Friday night, and then delayed 30 minutes for poor planning.

There was your usual mix of good and bad dancers, some I expect better from than I got, but hey…we all turn out a mediocre dance now and then. and of course those dances that make up for it.  I was pleased 2 of my friends were the bright lights of the night.

A new friend, Aytia from Haifa, after being chatty with me in IMs making the mediocre more fu, did herself and her Master proud with a lovely dance….  I was glad to see her take the second place award!

Atiya

The other dancer there, the one near and dear to my heart was Maddy.  I have known Maddy through several lifetimes in Gor.  We have been through heartache and disappointment and laughter and joy.  She is sweet on the outside and sassy on the inside and great fun to be with.  It was Maddy that drug me off to my first dance class….kicking and screaming…and Maddy who bought me my dance hud.  So blame her people!!

maddy3 maddy1

Maddy ruled the night and took away the first prize to the delight of her Master and of course…all her friends, including this privileged girl.

 

A year has passed….

I began this blog a year ago after being unjustly attacked and my reputation smeared in the dance community. Those who did it suffered the worse with the stain of the lies forever tainting them.  At the time I was un-collared, still reeling from being left behind yet again and seriously thinking about leaving Gor behind.  I persisted, driven by the need to prove myself a good dancer, which I feel I have with a unblemished record of placing in contests, participating in exhibitions and helping to organize events. Also staying because of  friends who’s company I would miss, and the knowledge that time changes everything if giving enough of it.

As the months passed I retreated into myself and formed a bit of a shell, my wall between RL and SL back up and solid.  I was at least able to take the wisdom I gathered from my last Master and apply it to myself is some ways and in others I had to discard it.  Involved in building and dancing I basically avoided RP in community situations and kept to myself until the fateful night I took a deep breath and decided to return to Gor in full.  My path was clear, be a city or tavern slave and avoid the pitfalls of being in one mans collar and the emotional minefield it can bring. 

The Priest-Kings had another idea and there he was, the man who would place his name on my collar and begins chipping away at my wall, brick by brick, day by day until the day that “Girl loves her Master” became “I love you”.

Us

It is a beautiful moment when the woman realizes that the man who owns her is her love master, and the man realizes that the girl he bought, looking up at him, tears in her eyes, is his love slave. Then the only danger is that he will weaken. One must be strong with a love slave. If one truly loves her, he will be that strong. The slavery in which a love slave is kept is an unusually deep slavery.
– Beasts, 236

For us its been over 7 month since we met, and over 6 months in his collar. An easy 6 months?  No, it takes time to earn trust from someone who has been betrayed. He has had to deal with the deed of others in my past. Was it worth it? I believe we can both say yes. Is it perfect? No, there are still issues and life will toss issues before us in the future, but we are working on it.  He makes me want to heal and be a better love -slave to him.  He has made the effort to understand dance and learn to see not only my dancing and my heart there, but other slaves as well and is exploring the possibility of becoming a judge.

What a difference a year makes!!

 

The return of the Dance Gardens!

Kira Swordthain and Elie Back have brightened the dance community by bringing back the Dance Gardens, a place for any Kajira or Kajirus to go and compose and practice a dance without fear of capture or harassment.  It was closed for a while due to economic reasons I heard and its so nice to see it back up.  I know Kira has had some headaches in the past there, especially with one person who tried to force her to cancel classes by one particular teacher. This person threatened to have the Garden boycotted, some people’s egos are so much bigger than they should be.  Lucky Kira is a honorable and strong person not to bow to such petty pressures so it was sad that money closed it.  The happy day was today that it re-opened with a bang!  A RFL Dance  and fund raiser! The prize for the dancer with the most contributions was Nela and Aziza won the raffle.

Lots of talent in the showing, lots of lag issues too, one poor dancer Aurora, couldn’t get off her knees to start then her HUD crashed and needed a restart, but she bounced back to deliver a entertaining dance.  Between the likes of Snow, Perle and the fabulous BabyPea and a offering from Kira it was a great show and lots of lindens flowed in! A new dancer made a appearance, Rhysha…her posts were too long but there is skill there and I expect to see more from her. Eight dancers took the time to come do this…Yay You!!

                                           Snowsnow 

                                         Perleperle

                                     BabyBabypea1

                                          Kira Kira

                          RyhshaRhysha

 

Off to Haifa!

Master and I popped into Haifa for their contest today, we got the word it was filling up fast and it was. Lots of talent in the line up so I settled in for a great show.  I was a bit let down.  The dance theme was Old and New,  girls took dances done before and changed them up reflecting the changes in themselves since doing it the first time.  I had not seen the originals except Tivi’s  so I cannot comment on how much or little the dances were altered except that one.

Too many of the dancers emotes were too long to read in the 20 second chat fade. While I know some schools teach these long emotes are the way to go, I for one…and many others I know….will not open the chat box and lose sight of the dancer dancing.  So if I cannot read it all (and I am a fast reader unlike my Master) and it fades…the dance has lost my interest.

I was also surprised by sloppy dances by skilled dancers, transitions that were non-existent, just abrupt drops to the ground or back to their feet. A couple didn’t cashe and had long stands between dance gestures.  One dancers emotes sounded like she took them directly from one of the books and cut and pasted them as a dance, they were flat and emotionless.  One dancer described rain dripping off her breasts, those breasts passing over the saturated ground…she was wearing a top…the emotes made no sense.  A dancer had her Master with the whip at the side of the pit….yet she danced to the judges, why wasn’t she dancing to her Master?  Another  mentioned a primitive beat and the music was mostly flutes and little drums and was a lilting tune.  One girl mentioned her breasts in half her posts…ok you got boobies…we get it!  One of the girls didn’t research her part and had her character dressed inappropriately for a tavern slut, having been one I was in IMs being asked about the costume.  The audience sees these things dancers!!   One dancer apparently writes out of a thesaurus, I had someone in my IMs asking….what does “Tossing it to gambol upon the breeze, torso oscillating to emulate the rise and fall of brightly coloured companion upon the wind.”  I replied – Throwing the petals to dance on the breeze her body sways as if echoing those petals on the wind.  Why not say that? Why not write to the common audience member?  These things distract from a dance and are unnecessary.

My two favorites were Tivi, who redid her “Heavy” dance from the perspective of time gone by out of the unhappy end of a collar.  It wasn’t light and happy now, but there was a new calm about it.  The story of it draws you in and you are waiting to find out ….does he kill her…does he relent?  My other favorite was Tissia’s, she used a quote on Goreans loving nature to set up a light hearted dance of a girl picking berries and enjoying a beautiful day in the forest.  It was a well crafted dance by a girl who teaches too. There were grumbles that she was a Haifa girl, and I do agree she should not have entered… but the dance deserved first place and got it.

 

 

 

 

Sighs…Wacko alert!

I was going to include the graduation dance tonight on the post below but I fear it warrants its own.  She attempted to lash out at Rya over at her Soapbox, Rya let the comment show and then put out the correct version of Shels rant, you read the little loonies comment and you see the depth of her depravity and psycho behaviour.

Yes, batshit crazy Shellirene resident strikes again.  Not that we were surprised, anyone who holds a grudge for over a year about being kicked from a city will certainly hold a grudge for a few weeks over being kicked from a class.  Oh not that she has the balls to show her face, (EDIT: Sydney tells me Shels alt plus a couple that we knew about were banned BEFORE the grad by the sim owner) just a few of her 26 alts showed and chat spammed and prim exploded the graduation. Unfortunately for her she screwed up an a couple of ways.  The crowd was informed of the who and why…wasn’t hard to figure out who they were when the attack was timed to hit Dani, the fixation of her ire for getting herself kicked out of Ti. Her mistake was there wasn’t just students there, the audience held Gorean City and Sim owners, Gorean Dance judges and other persons who will remember the name Shellirene Resident in the future.  She screwed with the whole sim, not just the graduation, Blades Edge is a well known and old established sim, the owner is gunning for her I bet.  We prepared for her with the owner standing by, after the first and second attack she moved in with a heavy hand banning and booting anyone who looked off.

How pathetic is this psycho?  She is so pathetic she has gone down the class list in the group and crawled into their IMs to whine about how she was persecuted, they have been in Rya’s IMs asking who this nutjob is!!!  She is not just crazy she is a disgusting hypocrite!  She is a white woman who has a black avatar and she spams the dance with the word Ni@@er!!  She is such a narcissistic nutcase that she didn’t give a rats ass about the fact that her griefing not only disrupted our graduation but the night-club and shopping mall also located on the sim, something Linden Labs frowns heavily upon… they dislike their cut of sales from merchants being reduced by this kind of attack. She screwed the pooch bad with her lack of being able to accept responsibility for her actions and pouring fuel on the fire.  I am sure I will come across her again but I can ignore a fart in the room as well as most.

Her intent was to shut down the graduation ceremonies but alas for her not everyone in Secondlife is a drama whore and every damn one of us rose above the nonsense and the dance continued! Dani waded through the BS to come back and do a wonderful dance, the likes of which Shellirene could only wish she could do!  Iris wowed the crowd with her Gorean and Freestyle, Sydney’s choice of Ganja Babe for her Gorean music was a great touch and a fantastic dance… even the Gorean judges watching loved it! Reine battled to stay online with connection and viewer issues to turn in 3 great dances including her “Rya dance”…to dance putting herself in another shoes with what they know about her.  Jolie  rocked the sands in her Gorean FW dance and Rya was in tears over the Rya’s Dances all the advance girls put forth. I wish I had a picture of Dani, but the idiots greifing attack ruined my chance of getting one.

sydney iris jolie reine

thegroup

We did a group dance to the Pirates of the Caribbean music which was fun for all as the finale.  Sorry about the pic…my browser stole some of the skirts!

Back to the good stuff!!!

This is a busy weekend planned! Starting off with the Groean Campus’s contest that Iris is entered into, with delight I found Rajaa was entered as well as favorites Perle and Rosa! The ranks were filled out with more talent in Tina, Kira and Keilen, I was not surprised to see Hoshi there as well.

Settling in for what I knew was going to be a great show I was not disappointed.  Keilen started off the dance with a whip dance and Rajaa finished it off with the tail of a southern kajira sold to the north and starving in a bad winter All the way down the line, with the usual exception, the girls brought their A games.  The lag was a bear, Rajaa told me in IMs she was abandoning her Barre HUD and going to a stripped down Huddle.  For those who dance the Barre is considered to be superior, but unfortunately with recent upgrades it had become more scripted and more likely to freeze up in contest situations.  I think I may follow her lead and dig out a older Barre with out the newest additions and strip it down to sleekness for a contest barre.  More to come in the next post…this is Saturdays, Sunday will be busy too!

Sunday started out with a fizzle…the Klumzy Dance exhibition that I wanted to see started at 11 not 1pm as I was told, so I missed it. :sadface:  Maddy showed me her entry though and it was great!!

maddy dance

 Maddy (Madyx Resident): Making a small turn around, dirty hairy leg stepping out as hand comes off a hip, stirring up the aroma of her unkempt body, completely oblivious to the looks of the Masters. Her smile widens showing off pearly….yellows.

Maddy as the clueless, bigfooted Urt figures she can snag a rich Master by dancing in a tavern for them…please note the armpit hair…snorts… In the end she gets a standing ovation…well, the Masters all run out of the joint… but they had to stand to do it!!!  I was sorry to miss the others, I am sure it was great fun.

 

 

Rolls eyes

As predicted Shellirene has decided to keep the drama going since she has found her actions have caused a further drop in her reputation in Secondlife.  I don’t want to keep this drama-fest going so this is the end.

“it seems now this topic of class is geting flashed over web pages just to dirty my name once again and prove Rya and Flame and Tivi correct, well lets put this to rest shall we, you be the judge of it all. my reasons for bringing this up to Tivi are after she had told me this”

Funny how she doesn’t seem to understand she had to place the link to her diatribe in her profile without figuring out that the truth would get out there too, if she hadn’t….you would not be reading this…and Rya’s blog….and Tivi’s blog

“i might add Flame contacted me not me contact her after she told me when i asked a question in group chat that all i did was  wine and complain, i then closed the chat window and insted of leaving it be, flame contacted me and this is what came of it”

Shell was at it again with her selective memory finding little parts to harp over, take out of context and piss and moan about.  The complete truth?  Several of us were in group chat , one of the girls asking questions… and I made a joke and meaning to call them pests I addressed it at Shel which offended her.  Being a well brought up and polite person, when I realized what I had done I quickly went into her IMs to apologize.

[2013/11/17 13:33] Flame (scarletfleur): sorry hun…I was just yanking your leg

[2013/11/17 13:37] ɐ (shellirene): well it was not very funny

[2013/11/17 13:38] ɐ (shellirene): ive not asked any of you for help except when i showed you the dance moves

[2013/11/17 13:38] Flame (scarletfleur): I apologize. You can show it when rya returns if that is what you want.

But of course Shel doesn’t choose to acknowledge the apology, that is not part of the persecution plan.  She chooses instead toe home in on one word…and now in her world I have used that word (lousy) to describe EVERY dance she ever did.

[2013/11/17 13:41] Flame (scarletfleur): I am sorry, it was the truth…you want to dance a dance that is lousy or good? Rya has looked at mine and critisized them and I dont sulk, I go back and rethink them.

At what point did I say…Do you want to do your lousy dance or make it into a good one?  Never. We all make the choice to do good work or bad work…that was the meaning of the sentence, but Shel…the persecuted… chooses to attribute that one sentence to that and all of her future work in my opinion. Did she mention the compliments to the aforementioned dance…no…the compliments over the now questioned Masters dances…no… my soul opinion of her dances (in her opinion) is based on one sentence she misinterprets or just makes up a insult for…like this next exchange..

[2013/11/17 13:43] Flame (scarletfleur): If you dont want any critisim never show your dance to anybody, when you get tired of wondering why no one likes them then maybe you will be ready to let others help by giving their opinions, you might not like them and they are just that, their opinions but you need to listen, look and decide.

[2013/11/17 13:45] ɐ (shellirene): oh i see so it sucked

How do you get “Your dance sucked” from that paragraph??????????  

Again, I am not going to slog through the complete rant on her follow up posting, lets just take another example of reality in Shel’s fantasy land….

and if i rember corectly Rya when the props were being spoken of  the week or so before hand in class Tivi said to leave it with her that she would ask about the prim count, i had also sent her a im before this one that she went off at me in that brought up all of this but as always Tivi never replyed to it.  it must run in the school because you yourself dont reply to my messages or my emails or my skype before you removed me off it, or my note cards, as id sent you a couple while doing the beginners to ask youquestions you  never answered.

Again, the props were discusses 3 weeks before this incident…it was Sydney who gave us the information that there was a 30 prim limit.  Shel mentioned her prop was over 30 prims 2 weeks before this incident and was told that wasn’t good, and then again when she IMed me. Then she gripes about being informed at the last moment.

Skype…I don’t think any of us had her in skype…there is no way in hell I would give her my skype address, I know neither Rya or Sarah gave her their skype addresses and would be surprised if Tivi did.  In other remarks she posts the proof that she herself did the muting and removing…not us. I cannot answer for the others, but I cannot answer email, IMs, and notecards that were never sent.  Ever. 

As for owing her a certificate…Shel must not have heard…in every High School, College or University I have ever attended, you CAN get your butt tossed out a mere DAYS before graduation for a plethora of reasons…not limited to just plain failing…Shel…you failed the final.  THAT and the drama you insist on causing is the reason you did not graduate and WILL NOT receive any precious certificate.  As for bringing up your past…that was so you can see the pattern of your life…and maybe…just maybe… a light bulb will go off and you will go…OMG! I keep screwing things up!!!!  I need to change!!!   I for one will not hold my breath, I do not believe you intelligent enough to come to that self realization.

psy·cho·path

[sahy-kuh-path] Show IPA

noun

a person with a psychopathic personality, which manifests as amoral and antisocial behavior, lack of ability to love or establish meaningful personal relationships, extreme egocentricity, failure to learn from experience, etc.
                                                                            hanib

 

 

The follow-up

After a meeting with several doms, teachers and students… it was decided to just ignore Shels rants. To further report her to LL for Harassment of individuals or groups, to have her main alt shut down, or her blog shut down for slander would only feed what she lives on….drama. Life is too short to waste on an individual so crass and obnoxious with the lack of ethics that would allow her to buy dances to pass as her own.  (Yeah, I can only draw that conclusion seeing how bad the before and after dances were and how good the Master choices were.)  Rya knows that those who know her integrity and passion for Dance will just shake their heads and dismiss the accusations.  Those who don’t care for her outspoken, “don’t box dancers in!” attitude will continue to not care for her.  So Shellirene and her vile puke means nothing to anybody important to us and we are done with it, done with her imaginary votes and self delusions, her manipulations, done having the other student moaning in my IMs about how she makes the class a misery.  It is doubtful we have heard the last of her, small souled, nasty people who feed on misery are hard to shake, like a drama succubus they keep coming around to try to find another meal of drama to feed off of in your life, I for one intend to put her on a diet.

                                     shel troll

Rya isn’t usually one to push up her sleeves and put on the gloves to go to the mat., but she felt Shellirene’s baseless lies needed to be addressed. So she put a entry on her blog.

Tivi also had one or two words to say on the subject, grab a cold one and a snack and go here.

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